learning japanese.

hay hay hay... finally, I'm back!!!

I just wanna share about my first experience in a japanese course.

after I walked and passed many obstacles in life *exaggerated*, I finally decided to join a japanese course this afternoon and right after I  registered, I could join the class.

I was really nerveous when I realized that I was a newbie in japanese (actually, I learned japanese autodidactly at home from my brother's book ( from 24 chapter, I just learned 5 chapter) but just as the active user, I just learned how to speak and grammar but I didn't learn kanji, katakana or hiragana). when I looked around, I felt really depressed and lost my confidence when I saw all of my classmates looked at the book calmly and read it while I understood nothing from that book. that's a thoughful moment of my life*exaggerated,again!*.

the class began, we learned how to introduce ourself in japanese and also the gesture. we learned that when we introduced our self in front of people, we had to bow 45 degree and greeted, "ohayou gozaimasu" if in the morning, "konnichiwa" when in afternoon and "konbanwa" in the evening. we also learned how to introduce our name and greeted people with "hajimemashite, watashi no namae wa (your name) desu", and told them where we came from with "(Your native) kara kimashita" and "(your age) desu" to tell your ages. and for the end of introduction,"dozo yoroshiku onegaishimasu".

we learned the introduction for 1,5 hours. and we practiced it in front of the class (of course with the gesture) one by one and we couldn't stop until we pronounced it well. and I got stuck in memorizing it (in kimashita and onegaishimasu), I forgot that part so many times and I forgot the gesture too and it made me stood in front of the class for a long time.huhu

that was a nightmare!!
it took my mood down and made me felt uncomfortable in the class.
I couldn't enjoy the class, I felt like I was the stranger there and I felt that I was the only one who didn't understand anything and I wanted to give up. but then I realized that I learned japanese because I didn't understand it. that was a usual thing that happened when we learned something new!!! if I already understood it, I didn't need to learn it anymore,right?!!!

because of the small obstacles, I want to give up!!!
that was absolutely not a cool attitude for a strong woman!!!
that was absolutely not a thought from someone who wanted to explore and developed herself!!!
and I started thinking this way, tried to cheer up myself and it made me went up to the sky *exaggerated,again!* and stood my feet firmly and now I am ready to face a new world,japanese!!!

ganbatte kudasai!!!!!

xoxo,
^_^