penlit?! help!!!!

konbanwa, everyone!!!

curhat niiiihhhh, about my research proposal...T_T

in my college, one of the final task in chemical engineering is a research!!! FYI, there are two final task, first is research, then a plant design.

we, as a student, have to make a research proposal in sixth semester and normally we do the research in the seventh semester. That's normally guys, it mean, there is some exception!!! and to make a research, we have to find a partner, its up to you whether it man or woman. and we will get a lecturer to guide us  to find a topic. 

Q  : how to get the lecturer??

A  : there was a special lecturer who accountable for listing the vailable lecturer and he chose them randomly, and we couldn't choose the lecturer for justice. that was a good reason, but sometimes, it could be a bad idea.

Q : why?

A : in my case, I with my partner, named farisa got a young and fresh lecturer who just finished her doctoral program in UK. Both of us really like her so much because she treats us well and gives many advices for us. in our first meeting, she asked us about our subject, (there are two subject, food and energy) and both of us took the energy subject. my lecturer was very shocked and asked us why we chose her as our adviser because her subject was food. we were worried if she asked us to find other lecturer. but fortunatelly, she wanted to be our adviser and asked us to find a relationship between food and energy. we got very excited and looked for it right away after she asked us. but one week after that, we couldn't find it!! we met the lecturer desperately and consulted our problem. then, she decided to run our research in food speciality altough our subject was energy.T_T

she gave us many advices. and we were interested in modified non-wheat flour (cassava, maize, etc) to make noodles. it looks simple right?? just to substitute wheat flour with non-wheat flour. but actually, it's not as easy as you think!! trust me!!! why? because to make the non-wheat noodles has the same characteristic as wheat noodles, it have to be modified by enzymes, fermentation and bacteria.

three weeks passed fast and we got stuck at a point where we couldn't find the best method to do it. we consulted to our adviser diligently, once in two days, but she asked us to find other method which was appropriate to our research. 

confused??? yes...

desperate??? yes...

want to give up??? no!!!

Q : then, if it was so difficult, why didn't you asked for a topic to your adviser. so you could just made the proposal??

A : wooohhhooohoooo... our adviser didn't want to give us a "pure" topic like other's did. she didn't want us give something easily before we tried to find it ourselves. when I saw my friends, most of them got a "pure" topic from their adviser to help their project or to continue their research. in the first meeting, they got a topic and they could develop it right away. moreover, some of my friend run their research now (I mentioned some exception before).huhuhuhuhu... 

but then, I remembered what my lecturer told me, 

she said " maybe you will take longer time than your friend but if you didn't do it by yourself, you will not understand the process. the most difficult part just to find the topic. once you get it, you'll be able to write it in a night. why? because you've already understood what you've done. you've already understood a whole of your research.you know why you choose 'this' better that 'that'. don't get jealous to your friend who already  finished their proposal or maybe run their research."

her words stabbed my heart. I thought about it again, and I realized that what she said was true. if she let us with her idea, we didn't know the real process of a research and we didn't know whole of our research.

thank you mrs. you made us realize the meaning of a research!!!

we will try our best!!!

please don't get tired with us!!!

we really like you!!!

we want to learn alot of things from you!!!

-fin-

I'm so sorry for my broken english. I'm trying to recall my english ability after I left it for 2 years.

arigatou...^_^

tergeletak!!

gyu.

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made in Bali.
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learning japanese.

hay hay hay... finally, I'm back!!!

I just wanna share about my first experience in a japanese course.

after I walked and passed many obstacles in life *exaggerated*, I finally decided to join a japanese course this afternoon and right after I  registered, I could join the class.

I was really nerveous when I realized that I was a newbie in japanese (actually, I learned japanese autodidactly at home from my brother's book ( from 24 chapter, I just learned 5 chapter) but just as the active user, I just learned how to speak and grammar but I didn't learn kanji, katakana or hiragana). when I looked around, I felt really depressed and lost my confidence when I saw all of my classmates looked at the book calmly and read it while I understood nothing from that book. that's a thoughful moment of my life*exaggerated,again!*.

the class began, we learned how to introduce ourself in japanese and also the gesture. we learned that when we introduced our self in front of people, we had to bow 45 degree and greeted, "ohayou gozaimasu" if in the morning, "konnichiwa" when in afternoon and "konbanwa" in the evening. we also learned how to introduce our name and greeted people with "hajimemashite, watashi no namae wa (your name) desu", and told them where we came from with "(Your native) kara kimashita" and "(your age) desu" to tell your ages. and for the end of introduction,"dozo yoroshiku onegaishimasu".

we learned the introduction for 1,5 hours. and we practiced it in front of the class (of course with the gesture) one by one and we couldn't stop until we pronounced it well. and I got stuck in memorizing it (in kimashita and onegaishimasu), I forgot that part so many times and I forgot the gesture too and it made me stood in front of the class for a long time.huhu

that was a nightmare!!
it took my mood down and made me felt uncomfortable in the class.
I couldn't enjoy the class, I felt like I was the stranger there and I felt that I was the only one who didn't understand anything and I wanted to give up. but then I realized that I learned japanese because I didn't understand it. that was a usual thing that happened when we learned something new!!! if I already understood it, I didn't need to learn it anymore,right?!!!

because of the small obstacles, I want to give up!!!
that was absolutely not a cool attitude for a strong woman!!!
that was absolutely not a thought from someone who wanted to explore and developed herself!!!
and I started thinking this way, tried to cheer up myself and it made me went up to the sky *exaggerated,again!* and stood my feet firmly and now I am ready to face a new world,japanese!!!

ganbatte kudasai!!!!!

xoxo,
^_^